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L Y R I C S
Awake
In the night,
He consumes my dreams. His voice beckons for me And I meet with him In the recesses Of my nightmares. He holds me tight, Tells me I'm alright. I'm safe in his arms. He says he'll protect me. He is the demon that keeps Me awake. He is the monster that watches me sleep. He is the hunter and I see that I'm his prey. But he is The only one Who will Ever Love me. Haunt Me (Gumi Ver.)Once upon a time, you stood beside me
And protected me from myself. But you've left me behind, Crossing worlds, where I can't reach you. I know I don't deserve you, But letting go Is just so hard. Every piece of me is numb, Yet I feel Every drop of pain as violently As I'd felt the first time. Lead me back to your bed, where I Can finally rest. Close my eyes - I've forseen the end With each breath I take, Your voice haunts me, Taunts me. This pain is going to overflow and pour Out of me Anniversaries and birthdays - Voices, faces - I wish They meant nothing, but they're burned into me as Though they're a lifetime of sins and I am Awaiting judgment. Wherever I turn, you are Always there - The things You loved and all the things that you had hated - They dictate - They dictate my very being. I am sorry that I Couldn't be the one; you know that I tried. All that I had ever wanted Was for you to love me too. With every breath that I take, Your voice haunts Me, haunts me, haunts me, haunts me. The desire to hear you Again is the only thing I Can feel, and I can say I would give anything to run Back into your arms and say That I was the one who was wrong, But I know that's not true; You were the one Who was in the wrong. Abuse Me (SONiKA Ver.)All of the people who love you
Are disposable Because they are not him. He is all you want and he is All that you Need, for he is your sun, your stars - Your moon, your sky. You let him become the Meaning of your entire life. You burn your bridges, Though he will Someday burn you Use me like a rug, Use me like a whore. I won't be here when he Spits on you, cheats on you, leaves you for dead. Abuse me now, while I'm here 'Cause I'm Running out of reasons To stay I didn't want to lose you, but I'm letting go; Can't keep covering these Scars, pretending as though you had Never broke My heart, and can't keep letting you Piece me together So that you can just break Me apart all over again Oh, abuse Me while I am still here with you. You're pushing me to The edge, and once I'm gone, You will be all alone, alone. All this pain Will make me indestructible So go ahead: Strike me if you want to. I don't care anymore; I am Over you now How long will it take for you To see what you've become? I drank from your promises, Not knowing that they were lies. Oh, I was in denial. You burn your bridges, Though he will Someday burn you Use me like a rug, Use me like a whore. I won't be here when he Spits on you, cheats on you, leaves you for dead. Abuse me now, while I'm here 'Cause I'm Running out of reasons To stay You pissed on my heart and laughed as You walked away. I hope that when he throws You off your throne, the pain will rot Your heart and You'll be left to no longer breathe, As you've done to me. I have no sympathy For someone who uses others. Fuck your abuse. Then Why does it hurt to see you broken? You killed me and then walked away So how can I hate you But feel so torn To watch you fade away? HollowHow many times have I wandered down
This empty street paved in my mind? All the houses are so empty, Their lights turned off - This ghost town is just so hollow. Oh, Hollow, hollow. Oh... Oh, I Pick up the shards Of the person I used to be, oh. Now I am so hollow. I am sinking In the black river All the things that we Could've been drown with me The "me" in all of my memories Is different than the "me" of now. Which one is real? Which one is fake? Even if I find the answer, I don't think it will bring me peace 'Cause I'm hollow, Without a soul. All of these things That we could've been Are sinking with me - You can't hear our screams. And I Pick up the shards Of the person I used to be, oh. Now I am so hollow. I need you But you've abandoned me, oh. You've won this war and You will win this war. You were always the one who was Much better than me, Toying with all of my Insecurities, oh why Don't you look at me And see the hollow Person that I have become? Oh! Oh, I Pick up the shards Of the person I used to be, oh. Now I am so hollow. Now I am so hollow. Parting From YouYou asked me why I had fallen in love with you -
Now I know: Your smile warms Me and I always lose myself whenever I hear your so-perfect voice And you have Unbound me from All of my chains. But no one knows the pain that Lies beneath the Surface of this affair. It all seemed so Perfect; you told me forever And that is why I can't Ever let you go. If you won't come back to me, Then I will make it so that you can't ever leave. I'll just take your life right here and join you in eternal rest. I Understand YouThere have always been words
I could never say, Always been feelings that I could never express I've spent my life Alone, and I fear I Will never find the end Every day is a fight - Me against myself. Is there a winner or Is there even a loser? It doesn't matter; No, you must see I Am already dead If you were to say there's a relief, You'd be a liar. I was dead from the day I was born, Defeated before I left the cradle. Oh... If only to have someone say "I understand" - That is all that I've ever wanted But no one does and I Die again Every single day is a fight - Me against the world But I'm not scared, no I am not scared; I may die alone, but I will die on My own terms Even if someone were to tell me That I'm not alone, I know the truth; I know the demon's Eyes are upon me I was marked before I was born Oh... But even if I am dead, It's nice to hear someone say "I am dead too. I understand you." Little BirdWhat cages you here?
Little bird, I set you free. I moved on, Shed my skin, but you're still living in the past, Writhing in all your self-indulgent shit. You never Were the goddess you built yourself to be. Say I was bitter, but I was the one who raised you On a pedestal, Loved you like no other. Little whore, I set you free. I stopped crying over all of your lies. I thought it was over - God, I thought you were done. But every single time you Open your mouth, bullshit and lies fall out. Yeah, every time you speak All I hear is bullshit and lies. Go ahead - Say what you want, but who buried her Insecurities in the sleazy men whom She knew just wanted to fuck her? Make yourself the hero if that's what you jack off to - Yeah, if that's what you get off to. Little whore, I set you free. I stopped crying over all of your lies. I thought it was over - God, I thought you were done. But every single time you Open your mouth, bullshit and lies fall out. Yeah, every time you speak All I hear is bullshit and lies. Say what you want, but no one will ever love you the way I did; Despite your bullshit, I was the one who forgave you. Keep talking shit, little whore. Keep talking shit. Fuck you! Little whore, I set you free. I stopped crying over all of your lies. I thought it was over - God, I thought you were done. But every single time you Open your mouth, bullshit and lies fall out. Yeah, every time you speak All I hear is bullshit and lies. I loved you, but You took advantage of me and feel nothing. Keep writhing in shit, little whore. Little whore. Leave the CageYour words - inconsistent,
Changing ends of the Spectrum before I can say a thing. This relationship is a house made up of cards. Breaking up means goodbye; What you mean's goodnight, And the more you break my heart, The more likely you'll be cut by all of the shards. What do you want from me? You told me to be free So long as I don't Leave the cage, Don't leave the cage. Leave the cage, Don't leave the cage. You say you love me, But I know I'm just the object of your lust. Your wants have always come before my needs So this time I will love me. I wanted to be Your only love because I've been beside you Despite the hell you have put me through, But she's the one Basking in your warmth. What do you want from me? You told me to be free So long as I don't Leave the cage, Don't leave the cage. Leave the cage, Don't leave the cage. Tiny crow, why do You stay inside of this cage when you can fly? Wouldn't you rather go into the night And leave your pain far behind? I stay because my Master feeds me and he says that he loves me. He always tells me that he needs me And that's more than I can say About anyone else. He sometimes tells me That I matter to him, and that alone is more Than I have ever deserved and it's Better than being alone. No! It's not better than all this abuse; His flippant "I love you" Isn't worth the million tears I've cried in his name. I'm about to burst, but he can't see - No, he can't see past his Desires and regard me as human, human. Humanhumanhumanhumanhumanhumanhumanhumanhumanhuman IdealsOne day, you'll find yourself alone.
Wake up, see that I am gone, And your empty promises Won't bring me back. The only person you're fooling Is yourself; if you can say That you don't love me, yet can't walk away - Honey, the one who can't see through the lie Is you. But you can tell me That I was too good For you. Say it out loud: Say it while you're fucking her, fucking her - Yeah, say you're at fault. Pretend you're noble when you secretly blame me. Yeah, blame it all on me. The damage you've caused can never Be repaired; I'm fucked for life. But still, you play the victim - Say you were right about me. You broke the promise that was my Only reason for living. You killed me for the ideals You saw in me. Ideals I had never Even possessed. Don't Need You AnymoreAll the pain I tried to bury -
Late at night, it comes back And tries to pull me under. The taste of your concept - Your transient embrace - Yet I can't seem to want you this time. I will survive on my own, I will face the future without you. All I wanted to say was that I'm doing fine And I don't need you Anymore. How do you say goodbye to the Only person who has Ever loved you and how Do you piece yourself Back together when all That you have are broken Remnants of unhappy memories? I will survive on my own, I will face the future without you. All I wanted to say was that I'm doing fine And I don't need you Anymore. The days have been passing me by; It's been two months now and I'm slowly recovering From the trauma you caused. But now I'm finally Free from the toxic love I tried to save for ten painful years. I will survive on my own, I will face the future without you. All I wanted to say was that I'm doing fine And I don't need you Anymore. I'm calling just to tell You that I'm doing fine on my own. I haven't hurt myself since the day you Left me, and I'm just calling To let you know that I've finally Looked myself in the mirror, and for the First time, I didn't cry. It's been two whole months and I can say - I can say that I'm better without you; I'm free. I am going to survive On my own. I'm calling just to say That I don't need you. I'm calling to tell you I don't need you. Blood and WineI want to hear you say that you love me, oh -
The only thing that I long for. Ah, words that taste of blood - Words that taste of wine. How can I love you But hate you All the same? If the knife falls On you, Let it fall on me. Cut me open and tell me you Hate me. All this pain reminds me that I'm alive And that I still love you. It feels so good - The way you Take my soul, Drinking from my life 'Til I die In your place. One day, I'll wake up But for now, I will sleep. So take my life, Take my pain - Free me from your name. Words that taste of blood - Words that taste of wine. |
Vocals: Gumi English
Vocals: Gumi English
Vocals: SONiKA
Vocals: Gumi English and SONiKA
Vocals: SONiKA
Vocals: Gumi English
Vocals: Gumi English
Vocals: SONiKA
Vocals: Gumi English
Vocals: SONiKA
Vocals: Blood and Wine
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